I woke up this morning to a text from my bestie with a picture of one of my exes and the caption “someone really dodged a bullet on this one, didn’t they?” I couldn’t help but laugh. You would have to know the ruthlessly honest candor that is my best friend’s personality to truly appreciate the text (and also have seen the picture). Everyone has a petty side where they see someone from their past but do a forehead wipe with an accompanied “whew!” giving thanks that you didn’t head down that path. That was the reaction I had this morning.
As I got up to get my day started, I gave it some more thought and the scripture “all things work together for good to them that love God and are called to his purpose,” (Romans 8:28) popped in my head and I couldn’t shake it. It just kept looping through my mind on repeat.
Years ago, that particular ex actually stopped talking to me once I confirmed that the way we used to get down was a thing of the past. There would be no horizontal hokey-pokey taking place on the last night we saw each other. He was actually quite blunt about ending the night and our conversation once he found out that information. Didn’t so much as want to give me a hug once he realized that I was for real about leading a new life of celibacy. It was laughable situation then and remains one now. However, years prior to that, I would have been hurt due to the blatant rejection. Now, I feel empowered knowing that I honored God and my body.
It’s so easy for me to say that I dodged a bullet but ultimately, God did one of those matrix-like tricks where the bullet gets shot but it stops right in front of me and drops to the ground, unable to harm or touch me. I ultimately had nothing to do with it. All I did was seek God and his will for my life. From there he began to twist and turn the events of my past- the sins, regrets and mistakes, and make them work out for my good. I believe that he sent angels to stand guard so that the bullets that are shot are blocked by the prayers from my parents and loved ones. We battle against more than flesh and blood people (Ephesians 6:12).
I don’t want to paint the picture that my ex was a complete jerk. That was a jerk move, yes, but based on our previous situation, he had certain expectations. I understand. Him walking away from me and us never talking again was a properly dodged bullet that was orchestrated by God almighty. I could go on and on about why this man and I were never meant to be but there is no need. I wish him all the best . . . from afar.
I believe that God has had His hand in every area of my life- love life included. He knows what’s best for me and knows how to make things work to my good. Even when I’m disobedient, stubborn or impatient, he knows how to steer the bullet so that it misses me. Sometimes, because of my personal actions, it may graze my leg or the heat of the speed may burn me and it may even hurt for a little while. Thankfully, the pain is never permanent. He’s there waiting and willing to heal my wounds, take away the pain and show me a new, fresh path.
I’m grateful for the dodged bullets, but I’m even more grateful for The One who protects me from them.
